Due to Technical Difficulties

13 and 2 is shutting down. I'm so excited about this! But I suppose since my issues are on blast, this is the last post for 13 and 2. It's been a great couple of months knowing this site. I've probably had a thousand blogs but this was the only one I posted religiously on but that's all over.

Final updates: I moved, got a new phone number, changed my name, my email address, and social security number just so I couldn't be tracked down. Yes, I'm that self important.

I live closer to the beach LOL so that will narrow your searches. It's great. I take my dog and Helen's dog for walks on the beach every other day and just go out there and breathe in the fresh air. Ernest loves it. He begs me not to take him back but he still gets car sick every time and I am trying to think of a way to curb that. Precious is coughing up something now. . . ew. Anyway, the new place is smaller but nice. The bedroom I'm in is way huge compared to the last one. Most days I have a smile on my face. Me and Jack get a long way better since Molly and Kaleb are out of the picture. His mom, I've been trying to coerce into activity every so often. She sleeps damn near 17 hours a day! This behavior has been going on for months. . .hopefully she will snap out of it but she's not trying very hard to although she claims she wants to get out more. I got her to go to the beach once but that seems to have been a one time thing.

If you haven't heard about allofmp3.com you should check it out. Screw iTunes. I bought a 45 track CD for about 2.50. So I was downloading a bunch of tracks last night from the sound track to Party Monster (everyone should check it out), an interesting movie about Michael Alig. I also downloaded some of my favorite tracks from the original Hackers soundtrack and also the soundtrack to the movie Hero. Tan Dun does the music for that one and Crouching Tiger and they are both delightful.

I'm making progress on my writing which is a relief. I've been beating around the bush for quite some time. AND I've stopped doing coke. Well, sort of. Just kidding. I would never do coke. I am too afraid of going into cardiac arrest. That was just for you people who like to talk. . . more ammo. But I don't do much besides write, play with Ernest, walk on the beach, watch movies, occasionally draw, and harass Jack. It's great. I am a lot happier than I have been and feeling a lot of relief and purpose.

If you have come here for the whole Adinasi down low, then go see Adinasi. Other than that, peace out internet friends. If I want to hear from you, I'll probably contact you!

Money, Success, Fame, Glamour
By: Felix Da Housecat Vs. Pop Tarts/Macauley Culkin/Seth Green/Chloe Sevigny

Greetings citizens, we are living in an age in which the pursuit of all things other than money, success, fame, glamour, has either been discredited or destroyed.

Money, success, fame, glamour, for we are living in the age of the thing.
Money, success, fame, glamour.
Money, success, fame, glamour.
Money, success, fame, glamour.
Money, success, fame, glamour.
Money, success, fame, glamour.
Money, success, fame, glamour.
Money, success, fame, glamour.
Money, success, fame, glamour.
Money, success, fame, glamour.
Money, success, fame, glamour.

Money, success, fame, glamour.
Money, success, fame, glamour.
Money, success, fame, glamour.
Money, success, fame, glamour.
Money, success, fame, glamour, for we are living in an age of the thing


If you like this song, check out the rest of the Party Monster Soundtrack. . . including "Frank Sinatra" by Mannequin LOL.

Blah

I am just bloggin' because. I don't really feel like it. I just put listerine all over my face. There are bugs everywhere. No, it's not the weather. These people won't clean a thing. It's funny really. They expect me to go to work and come home and clean up after them. Jack is not working, Kaleb didn't go to school, yet the house is certifiably condemned. Jack ain't here and Kaleb is sittin' on his ass playin' video games. There are little fruit flies EVERYWHERE! There are crap flies too I guess. Jack stupidly left the door open and left the house. Well what do you know the animals came and peed and crapped on the bed. It wasn't just Ernest but since they peed on Jack's side I would say that was Ernest because he always does that. The crap was small so it was probably Precious. Could have been Ernest though, thank God no worms if it was.

So there are bugs in this room too and there are the little flies everywhere. That's why I am wearing a listerine suit. It was an act of desperation. I sprayed on off but it is not super effective. I put it in my hair too because those fuckers get in there. Now I am pissed. I have to get to writing though. After all, I am a writer. That's what I am supposed to do. I'm not tryin' to make a career out of Walmar-te. I spent some of my Walmart gift card on dog food today. But anyway, I am sick of this position. Later.

Life and Times at Walmar-te

Well it wasn't too bad today. An honest day's work. I met some interesting characters inluding one old man that was interested in buying one of the two computer types at the store. I didn't know anything about the systems so I was reading the box. After talking to higher ups in that department, no one else knew anything about it either. . . made me miss Apple a lot. It was fun. I enjoy helping people. I helped one woman with film for her camera, I helped people find stuff, I helped that old man with the computer find some baking tools. He said, it's not what you think, they are for me, not for my wife. I thought it was cute. He said he went to school for baking just for fun. . . never used it in a career.

My back is hurting from sitting all day taking tests. That was kinda boring. I am still wanting to learn about HDTV. I have two tests to take on that. I am gonna look up some stuff on walmart.com just so I know.

I need to be writing. I will be writing soon. I have some good ideas for my story so I should like Snoop said, "Drop it like it's hot!" LOL. That's a good one. Bush is on TV. I guess I'll listen. I kinda like him, don't shoot me. The old guy looking for the computer kept telling me about how Harry Truman was the greatest president ever.

I know I'm boring tonight, go read about Terry Shivo (or however you spell it) and her 'right to life' battle.

Threatened

Jack is threatened by me working. I started working at Walmart today. It's actually a pretty cool place to work. The Vice President of operations started out as a cashier. That's the funny thing. Some stores have one or two stories like that but at Walmart that's everyone's story. These people have no degrees, no nothing, but they work for Walmart for 20 years etc. It's amazing. Can you believe the Brunswick store here was the 4th top sales in all the Walmart stores? That's crazy. . . but then, people go on dates to Walmart here :) The woman who was training us started as a section manager and ended up becoming assistant store manager and traveling all over the U.S. and Canada to open Walmart stores. She got to live in Canada for 4 months. It's cool. But whatever.

Jack is saying, basically now I don't need him anymore because I'm working and now he is in a pitiful state. Things have been going well with us. Once we decided to keep it cool we got along better. So he starts getting all sentimental and I am like, I don't want that. . . so he's mad and then he gets over it. Now this. I am like geez. I was thinking a lot today about the feelings I used to have driving home from the Apple Store. The greatest feeling on Earth. . . I belonged. I didn't make enough money to survive. Sometimes I had to put 3 dollars of gas in my car and half of it was change. I ate red beans and rice for a while, but I loved the store. I felt like an amazing superstar working there. Ah well, what can you do? I am going to go. My stomach hurts. When I find a journal that works with my free internet I will email it to yall. If I haven't given you my new email address and you actually read this, please post a response to this post and let me know. If you leave your email I'll email you. I think my instant messenger will work. . . I think. Who knows. Later yall. I think I have found an allergy. After eating lunch yesterday my throat nearly swole shut and it didn't go too far down until an hour ago.

Stalkers at the Flea Market and AOL

Well yesterday I visited the flea market where Jack works on the weekends. It was great to be out of the house but I discovered the smell of grinding bone will give you major headaches! Plus it smells aweful too. Anyway, I was walking around and this hispanic guy in about his early 40's kept following me around. He kept coming up behind me and saying "I love you for you." I thought this was so insane. I told him I wasn't interested. I went back to the table where Jack and his friends were working and sat there. Then the guy just kinda walked around the tables near there and kept starring at me. I mean, I know I'm sexy but geez, no means no LOL.

(I had to go run out and wake hellen up and let the dogs out. But before I could do that I had to secure all their escape routes from the backyard)

Anyway, people at the flea market broke out into big arguments. I was like whatever. I bought some books there. I got like 5 for a dollar. But they were 50 cents a peice if you didn't buy 5. That was kinda a rip off. I didn't want some of the ones I got but it was cheaper than buy only 3. I've been drawing and everytime I sit down to write I get into a problem, headache or whatever. Jeez! I have to really get down to it. That's my promise to myself. Everyday I am working on my story but not putting things on paper. I'm doing things like reading help books, formulating my ideas. . . which have improved since reading this great book.

Anyway, Since I might not have AOL for a minute, I am probably not going to be able to blog for a minute as well. Will probably get a live journal or something. I like their look anyway. I am signing off. Might be on later today but I am too tired. Plus I gotta get in there and clean the kitchen.

Etc. . .

I am totally full. Been stress eatin' today. Molly drivin' me crazy but I talked to her today which was sooooo fuckin' weird. Anyway, things are cool. I find myself pickin' up some of those manipulation traits. I find myself reconciling with her mostly on the basis of the car. I am going to start work next week and I will need to get there. This is incase Jack doesn't get his act together. You know what. . . I just lied. LOL, not intentionally. I don't know if I got the job yet. Well, I have made some decisions about myself. Some directions to definitely go in. Here there are for the world to see. I usually have problems putting it out there because when I don't achieve my goals I feel horrible. I always feel like I can't have any more goals (like cookies. . . you've had too many LOL). But in the interest of being a new me, circa 2 counceling sessions, here are my goals:

1. To pursue one hobby above all others and do it consistently (this is like telling superman to eat kryptonite soup but for me it can be done! Believe in myself). That hobby is writing. It is the one thing I feel strongly about. All the others I feel very mediocre at. I intend to improve that hobby and threat it as if it's a full time job. I intend to call myself a writer because I read that that helps you to make that become true. But I am not going to be a cheesy, wish I was at the white house type of writer because that would be me trying to live someone else's goals lol.

2. I will commit all my language efforts to Spanish. (This is a big step OUCH! I have the desire to go back on it already! But hold fast. . . this is me and my new stick-to-it-ive-ness)

3. I have decided well you know, I forgot the others LOL. Damn!

Those goals may not seem like real good goals to an outsider. They may say, 'finish college' is a goal. But the truth is, my passion is definitely writing (today. . .kidding) and I am definitely going to pursue that. If I get to go to college again great. If I don't and I become successful, then I just prove to everyone what I have always believed, college is just a place you go to show that you stuck to something. Me sticking to my writing is the same thing (less classes though). I know I know in college you learn stuff from people but geez, nothing I learned in college thus far was something that I couldn't learn in a book. My problem was that I wouldn't stick to it. I should be fluent in Spanish and Japanese by now but I didn't stick to it. You see. BTW, I agree you might need a teacher to teach me calculus but I didn't learn it when I had a teacher so my point is proven with superhuman logic.

Bored Out of My Gord

Well I will tell you what is SO UNFAIR! The fact. . . that there is already a Sims2 Expansion Pack but no Sims2 for Mac. I've been playing the first sims with a few expansion packs on it. I wish there was an apple store close by. I could buy the original sims disks which are lost in space somewhere. I let people borrow them and now it's gone. I have all the other expansions I think except livin' large. I might have it. But they sell those two together these days. So I want to get that with livin' large and then Hot date, vacation, and super star. Then I will have all of them for Mac. I already have hot date and vacation for windows. Too bad it's not like the olden days where programs came with Mac and Windows on the same disk.

I am a little bored these days. Aside from watchin' HGTV and Pimp My Ride, I haven't done much around here. Oh I clean up whenever Molly is not around. That reminds me of what happened the other day. I'll tell you in just a sec. Anyway, Walmart may hire me. I hope. I am not sure. I'll be 27 tomorrow and I don't think anyone here notices. Oh well.

So the other day Kalob and his little buddy had a sleep over. I kept coming in and telling them to pick stuff off of the floor so that the dogs wouldn't tear it up. So he leaves his XBox controller on the floor and what happens? Ernest chews it up. . . no one knows for sure but knowing Ernest, he did it :) So Kalob notices while I am out there and he goes into a fit. I said, "I told you to not leave your stuff on the floor but you did it anyway." That pisses Molly off. I gave him my controller to play with and said I don't have any money right now to get a new one. He is ranting in there while I came back here and he said, "You need to get a job." If Molly wasn't here I would have torn that kid a new asshole. How dare he. Me get a job when I am doing all his work for him? I could see if he was doing spectacular in school but this kid is a real loser. I am sorry. I know we are supposed to be on the side of kids but this kid is a monster. Molly told Jack that 'I have to go.' But then Jack told Helen that and Helen told Molly that I was the only one that does anything around here. I hate that bitch. I wish she would fuckin' croak. Damn, how every unchristian of me :(

Well I didn't talk to Kalob for the whole day and I still don't talk to him if I remember that I am mad.

Bored bored bored. Waiting to hear back from walmart because if I get it I will find another job and schedule around it. Had to take my first drug test yesterday. I am pretty sure it was my first. Didn't have to do it for Apple. While I was at my Walmart interview, the woman interviewing me said that funniest thing, she said, "We checked your references, Steve at Apple said to come back." That made my day of course. Hopefully when I do come back I'll be able to work there. They at Walmart said they are looking for people to stay with the company for years. . . but I am thinkin, at 6.85/hr, you aren't lookin' too hard. That was what they offered me. Ouch. They said I didn't get much of an increase because I hadn't worked anywhere for more than 2 years. Well here is the deal, that's not entirely true. I worked at The Bay/KPS for more than 2 years but the problem is, my job description . . . teacher and TA are two different things. I thought it would sound real pushy to correct it. She said I would have a chance to get about a 40 cent increase in 6 months. These people are not serious! So anyway, whatever. That sucks but it is full time if I am working there. That means benifits which I hear are great at walmart and I do really need it.

Oh well. Soon I shall have my come-upance or however you spell it. Yes I am trying to get 2 jobs once again so I can have as little time at this house as possible. And when people say I am not helping out I will say 'fuck you and your little dog toto too!' Screw them I guess.

Nothing else is really going on. Trying to think of something else to say but I can't!

Where Does This Leave Me

Well I can't even blog about all the stuff that's going on in my head right now. I went to see two doctors today. One is the one for my head, the other just so I could get some medications and get my period to stop. Well it turned out I am gonna be lookin' at over 100 dollars in meds. That's with no job. I saw my head doctor and it seems he is no longer gonna be working at the place that I go to. . . typical. All men eventually leave me, except for Jack that is, I guess I have left him in a lot of ways.

On coming back, it probably won't be real soon. I did want to come back before year1516 split but I don't think I can do it. It's not just the shame thing, it's that I have nothing. I have been applying for jobs around here. I was going to ask Y1516 if he wanted to come down here and do a uhaul trip back with me but I think I am not ready just yet. I am coming back home but just want to get something in my pockets first.

On moving in with my dad and K. It seems there will be the traditional thought of 'expectations'. The problem is, I get asked to set all these goals and I never meet them. I wish I could just come back home and work and live and pay off my debt and eventually go to school for something. Those are my only goals.

I talked to my counselor today and he says he really likes talking to me. Then when he said he was going to work in a hospice I told him I had terminal cancer so I would be there soon. (I don't really lol). Well, he told me I needed to pick something and stick with it even if I didn't like it. That is a new thought for me sort of. But I guess it's the best advice for someone like me. He was trying to push meds on me and I really didn't want to go that route. I have the potential to become an addict all jokes aside and I don't want that.

So I am not coming home all that quick but I will be back in sunny southern cali soon enough. I miss it. Miss apple. . . hope when I do come back they hire me. I am gonna go watch making the band 3 now. too depressed to write more.

6 days til a happy birthday to me. doubt anyone around here will remember.